Around this time of the year, people tend to make resolutions for the following year. Some people say they will lose weight or stop smoking, or both. Runners like us make goals for the next twelve month. We plan our races, we think about whether we want to run faster, longer, or train harder.
Last year around this time, I told myself I would run a marathon in 2012. Little did I know about what would happen in 2011. On June 21st, I got injured. My knee started hurting so much, I couldn’t even walk. No doctor could tell me why. I did an MRT, but nothing could be found. So the best I could do was buying new running shoes and after some time, I started running again. Very slowly. On August 7th, after many sessions of physiotherapy, I managed to run 5km.
Everything was ok again. I still felt that there was “something”, but it didn’t hurt. I run a bit more every month and I finally felt comfortable that I could run a marathon in 2012.
Then, December came, and with it came lots of work and studying for exams. I made studying my priority, and I have only run 18 km this month. My last exam for this semester is in three weeks, and even though I love running, I do feel like it is not important at the moment. Well, maybe it is, but exams are more important right now.
Now, sitting here thinking about my New Years Resolutions, and I wonder whether I should still try to run the marathon in my hometown on April 29th. I do not only want to sign up for it, but I want to finish strong and healthy. So the question is whether I should sign up.
I might just make 2012 the year of half-marathons. I am planning on running a half marathon miles in under 2 hours anyway, so this could be a goal I could focus on. If 2012 is not the year of my first marathon, who says 2013 can’t be?
On the other hand, I have wanted to run a marathon for a very long time, and I have postponed again and again it for almost as long.
Have you ever felt like you want to run a race, but you were too insecure whether you can manage it or not?